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I have almost achieved a goal I have been chasing for the past 2-3 years.

But tonight I feel sad.

I don’t know why. I still have a long way to go.

And maybe I’m scared of the next steps.

What if I fail?

What if I end up in debt?

What if I drag my family down with me?

I always feel like when life is going good. Something drags me back down.

Maybe it was the talk of family members being more successful than I am. At Sunday dinner, we spent a good long while talking about my brothers new ventures. Less than 5 mins on mine.

Maybe I’m just less chatty about it.

Idk. I’m rambling. Trying to make sense of my feelings.

I thought I would have at least some sense of satisfaction.

But now all I can think about is the pressure to keep the plates spinning. The confidence I don’t have. And the next goal.

I long for the day I feel at peace. It all just feels like a mask because honestly, I don’t like living. But I’m trying my best.

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Good for you following your dreams. It's scary; but for every thing that might go wrong, there is another that might go right, so try to keep your eye on the positive and don't let anything deter you or lead you away from your path.

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First, congratulations on your present accomplishent(s). Two or three years of vested interest adds up.
And now is the time to follow through - you've come this far. The real crime would be to give up at this point.
If you fail - so what. To do nothing regarding any of your dreams or goal is worse than failure.
Secondly, you can only compare your success according to the effort you put into it. Stop comparing what you're doing with someone else's success - you're not them and they aren't you. And, yes, sad as it is, the spotlight ("fame") may be on someone else - who cares. I would rather be rich than famous, and usually if you're famous because you're rich....I would begin to question who my friends are.
Finish your project(s) one at a time. Too many projects on the table can be a problem so keep it simple where it's easier to manage. This allows you to focus on the next step. Think each step through carefully but after you're done, move on that step with firm action.
Keep up the good work. It'll pay off in the end.

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