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Roccoflip
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Why are you sad?

Still doin stuff for starbyface
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No matter why you're sad, I hope you can find the strength to take whatever this is a day at a time. Like my older sister told me, it won't be like this forever. It doesn't have to be.

Happy earth
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It's ok to be sad sometimes. Just don't let it take over.

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We can’t help you if you don’t tell us the reason why..

Pin zpsnvl44m6p
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Sometimes you just feel sad for no reason? I think that was the case when I originally posted this. I feel like my life is all out of sorts - "Not the way it should be/should have been."

But I don't know why. I can't put my finger on it. I feel like everything is all wrong even if technically it's not.

Maybe it's a chemical imbalance. Maybe I just don't have the emotional capacity to find happiness or contentment regardless of my current circumstances. Or maybe I'm right and life is just all wrong, even for everybody else too, and it all just sucks.

This is a feeling that has been sticking with me for weeks now, going on months...

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pinocchiothepuppet wrote:
Sometimes you just feel sad for no reason? I think that was the case when I originally posted this. I feel like my life is all out of sorts - "Not the way it should be/should have been."

But I don't know why. I can't put my finger on it. I can't say what I would have done differently if I had the chance.. I feel like everything is all wrong even if technically it's not.

Maybe it's a chemical imbalance. Maybe I just don't have the emotional capacity to find happiness or contentment regardless of my current circumstances. Or maybe I'm right and life is just all wrong, even for everybody else too, and it all just sucks.

This is a feeling that has been sticking with me for weeks now, going on months...

Happy earth
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pinocchiothepuppet wrote:
Sometimes you just feel sad for no reason? I think that was the case when I originally posted this. I feel like my life is all out of sorts - "Not the way it should be/should have been."

But I don't know why. I can't put my finger on it. I feel like everything is all wrong even if technically it's not.

I can relate. I bet most people can. It's so hard to change things when you can't even figure out what you need to change. It might be a chemical imbalance, but if it's not, taking medication won't fix it. Medications are good, but not miraculous.

Take time to think, to be in nature, maybe to write if that's your thing. Spend time with friends if that's pleasant for you. It's ok to be sad sometimes but you can't let it take over your life.

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How are you feeling, Pinocchio?

Pin zpsnvl44m6p
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Well i guess some things are troubling me now that i've thought about it a little. My grandmother has cancer and has been given 6mo-2yrs to live. My bills are too high since I lost my $15/hr job and now have a $10/hr job and I'm looking at the end of living in my apartment I've been at the past 6 years and will likely have to move almost two hours away from the town i've lived in for over a decade. This would just be a fact of life kind of thing i suppose, if I didn't find out it's likely a friend of mine put my former boss up to hiring me in the first place 6 years ago. Was the last 6 years just a pity party? A ploy to teach me a lesson? I spent all that time wondering why I was there, and being angry that I couldn't figure out why i couldn't fit in, because it didn't make sense. Now I am pretty sure a friend put my boss up to having me there. Wtf am I supposed to think about that??? I'm trying hard not to find that really super ******fucked up.

It probably came from a place of good intentions, but how can you manipulate someone for 6 years like that and think they're going to just stay oblivious? The thing is, I asked my friend early on if they knew each other. My job there, looking back, didn't make a lot of sense.

So people are getting sick around me, I have no power to take care of myself much less help with other issues like family getting sick and dying around me, and life generally just sucks right now when your friends try to trick you or go behind your back.

Additionally I've been diagnosed schizo-affective disorder and don't even know where to begin with that. i have no health benefits any longer and wasn't pursuing treatment for that even when i did. i feel like i'm still figuring out what that is and the best direction to go, but have no money or benefits to do anything about it when i do.

Nothing seems to be working for me having tried over ten years now to find some kind of stability in life. i realize now it's just not going to happen. i am clearly not in control of my life at all. Other people are, but not me, not of my life, they for some ******fucked up reason get that privileged. Because I didn't decide to hire me having an ulterior motive, or fire me because i didn't get what i wanted out of me after i did. Or lie to me to set it up.

The fact is I may not be schizo anything at all. I was just sensing the INCREDIBLE AMOUNT OF BULLSHIT around me. That job for the last six years was a *******fucking lie. I wasted six years of my life on a lie. And for what? Nothing to end up working out for me anyway? I guess I'm a lot more than a little mad at everything right now.

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Sorry I am only just replying to this post.

Sorry to hear about your Grandma. I’m guessing your pretty close. What about your Parents how do you get on with them?

Have you moved to another apartment if so how is it going?

No offence but if my friend tried to help me with a getting a job I would see that as a good thing?
It goes to show they have your back(well it does to me anyway)
It wouldn’t anger me in the slightest.
Maybe your friend(s) knew the kind of reaction and thought it best to keep quiet so they didn’t upset you?
You do seem quite fiery, Pinocchio.
I know life can be ****shit. Some rollercoasters make you literally sick and the ride never seems to stop.
I don’t have a magic wand that will take your pain away,but what I do have and always will have is your best interests at heart.
I know I might give crappy advice like telling you to get help (which you probably already have a gazillion times) But just remember not everyone wants to kick you when your down,there are good people in this world. I hope you find some inner peace. Take care of you.

Pin zpsnvl44m6p
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i guess i'll live. if this is living.

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I often get days like this, Pinocchio but lastnight I decided to pick myself up shake myself down and go and join the real world.
Because of my positive attitude I’ve landed myself a job. A job which I am hoping will open lots of doors for me.
If you don’t live you die, simple. There’s so many things to do, so many places to explore.
Intention to fulfill and grab whatever’s out there is my main goal now.
What about you?

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