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Mya wrote:

music=life wrote:
He replied essentially saying that he loved her the whole time we were together and he lied to me so I wouldn’t get upset. But he phrased it in a way like I couldn’t be mad at him. I’m so sick of being used

:O noooo! :(((( So, how are you feeling now? Did it help you to get over him..? Sending big hug xx

i feel horrible and cheated

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I don’t have anything worth living for.

I volunteer at an animal shelter in the city once a week. I just got a job and am realizing that that is the extent of life. You work until you die. I don’t have any free time because of work and when I do I am exhausted. I don’t even know what would make me happy anymore. If I won the lottery today I still don’t think I would be happy. My plan was if I got to this point I would run away but I’ve learned that I can’t runaway from my past and I can’t forget the things that have happened to me

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Help.

He replied essentially saying that he loved her the whole time we were together and he lied to me so I wouldn’t get upset. But he phrased it in a way like I couldn’t be mad at him. I’m so sick of being used

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When he broke up with me I didn’t say anything, which is my fault. I don’t express the way I’m feels because ‘what if the other person thinks they are weong’ Or ‘what if it starts a fight’. I have been taught to be a good little girl and hold my tongue. My whole life everything I do and say is to make other people happy. This email was to finally stand up for myself. You are right, it came too late and did no good. But I got to say how I felt and for once without thinking of what others might think.

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I couldn’t help it- I sent this...
This is a letter I never wanted to write because I never want you to feel as horrible as you made me feel. I loved you and probably still do. I won't ever say you cheated but you left me for her which hurts just as much. You told your mom you were going to marry me. We talked about being together and starting our lives together. We had plans, and I was stupid enough to fall for them. You left. From my understanding, it was because you didn’t want to leave your family and I couldn’t see myself leaving mine. But the second after you left me you got into a relationship with another American girl. When you broke up with me, it started with looking at her profile waiting for you to declare you were in a relationship. Then you got engaged not even a year after our relationship ended. And that hurt. I felt used and stupid for thinking anything you said was true. Checking in on her profile and yours allowed me to be prepared with what was coming next, you coming here-which scares the ****shit out of me. Everything I did was out of fear and even though you have no idea how much you hurt me I didn’t ever mean to hurt you.

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doctor please

I don’t always understand you posts, but this one made me laugh. I needed that

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I’m going to try and get back on medication. I have been having constant panic attacks since this happened

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That’s the thing, they never blocked me from anything. Which would be way easier than emailing me. I blocked them just so it would take me a separate step to look at there profiles (to then unblock them). I want to get off social media bc it has caused me to become obsessive and I think it’s the only solution. But I feel so horrible about myself that they found out and it’s impacting there life. And I am mad that he contacted me

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I just check YouTube bc I never looked her up on there and found that she subscribe to me

That makes me angry so I couldn’t help myself but reply :
What I did was wrong. I am sorry. It will never happen again. There is no need to respond to this. I have deleted all social media accounts.
As for the Youtube, I logged on it appears that she subscribed to me, not the other way around. It is irrelevant now as I deleted that account.

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I have never had an issue with medications. I hate taking them. I do not drink bc my mother has an alcohol dependency issue. I also do not like the taste. I only drink at special occasions and even then it’s usually just a sip. The xxanx I took was from months ago when I was being treating for panic attacks, anxiety, and severe depression. I final got myself out of that horrible place and I am terrified that this email will put me back there. I agree that I should not respond

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