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Did he just ask me to hangout with him or did I misunderstand him?

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I think people think I'm trans.

Let people think what they want. They will do anyway. What you think about you is all that matters. U cant control what others think. U can only control urself

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My life feels like it's been hacked.

We are all a player in the game

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I suffer from noise anxiety.

BOSE headphones are supposed to be best for noise cancelling. Atleast they were. No idea about new apple stuff. Expensive rip off though. If you own one thing apple be warned that everything else will have to be apple that it connects with too.

I bet u will only be able to plug them into an apple device.

Greedy buggers could have gave my ipad a USB slot!

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ok guys, got some real help needed here

Wow im happy for you

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ok guys, got some real help needed here

Yey awesome :) congrats.
Made me giggle the way it was said.. thank you goodbye haha

Almost as blunt at the shouts "this shout trail does not involve you" haha!

Like yes u r getting a raise now goodbye hehehe

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Why do I still come back here?

Community and cos u care. Sense of belonging... social solidarity? Belonging to a group whereas perhaps not feeling that true belonging in other places? Needing acceptance for who u r and finding it within a group.

Maybe cos being here has potential for personal growth?

Maybe cos helping others brings a sense of purpose to existence.

And genuinity of people sharing problems instead of wearing masks and showing fake grass.

Grass greener on the other side cos its fake. But we dont have to have fake grass here. A safe place to share our screw ups lol

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Dr isnt listening to me

Carer sending letter to GP. Hoping he gets it. Hoping he does support letter for benefits b4 paternity leave and hols. Carer will ask for a copy of the letter he sent Speech and lang to show me.

I want to see if hes listening.. who knows maybe i will be surprised. Im just way too used to talking to brick walls.

Carer also sending letter to retrieve my data from various people including speech & lang.

If speech & lang tell social services that i dont struggle then u can guarantee they will tell benefits assessor and i can GO BK TO WORK.

I hope dr understands. I can dream!

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Dr isnt listening to me

My family are all going on holiday for 5 days without me. Again.

Mam gave me a xmas magazine. Only its mostly stuff that i cant get to enjoy like foods i cant eat and Xmas crackers i cant pull, kitchen stuff made of stainless steel. Great way to get the heavy metals in.. its a book of brainwashing the way i see it.

Im really not bothered about xmas. Just another opportunity to be on my own.

Everyone else can enjoy the fireworks and Halloween.

The kids are going in the water park this time. Last time id worked so hard to be well enough to go in and had an embassader helper person. I remember us looking for my my family who were gonna come in but werent there.

Sis was had with her EDS and bro in law his hand was healing from an accident. Dad with infection that alcohol feels and mam allergic to chlorine anyway.

Id bought a water proof camera to capture the times witb the kids who i didnt get to see enjoy the water park.

This time they get to go in. And im not there to see it. Or the school plays or easter hunts or the birthdays or the paddle pool days or making snowmen and snow angels. Or xmas. Or seeing my autistic nephew learning. When i first heard him say my name from the kitchen and that had been so far away for him the last id been with him. But now he talks and i couldnt go and praise him or celebrate. I just get to hear that he wants me ans im not there. They say he screams sometimes cos he wants me. Mam says he asked where i lived so he can visit.

My older nephew cried when i last saw him. He said he wondered if i was ever going to get better. We both cried and i pinky promised him i was going to get better. I said when was the last time we saw each other. About 2 years he said.

And my niece i havent seen or spoke with... since 2017. And it was brief.

Sis got me a make your own fairy garden. I cried so much cos that means i get to see and touch grass again.

But people havent had time. People didnt have time for me before I relapsed, the reason for my relapse. People dont have time now. What hope do i have for future.

Meanwhile sending emails to brick walls. Talking to myself loke i have done inside my mind for way too long. Isolation. You can scream and cry but they arent listening and they arent coming to save you. Whilst existing for everyone elses benefit.

Emails and letters. Hours and hours though day and night to write and paralysis in the floor for 2 hours, using a dummy to bite my pain into. Instead of my arms for the writing of emails and letters that i write to brick walls and told i dont need help. Asking for help is inappropriate. My reaching out for help is inappropriate and inconvenience for others.

Its no wonder my friend isnt here no more.

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Dr isnt listening to me

I probably wont be online much next few days again.
Sometimes i get a moment or two of mobile data but its all used up so it then stops me. Sometimes i get a couple free moments..

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