Mam wrote her account of what happened so that's good.

I think someone here was right about trying to rely on mam a bit more. Not too much. But a little bit more.

Thank u so much for taking the time to read my post ❤

Thank you

Do they have that in America?

U have tried so many ways of getting help.
Can I share something that you may NOT have tried yet?

This is from my first link I shared at beginning of post:

"Causes of depression
There is a general assumption that depression is a psychological symptom, but this is not so. My experience is that the majority of depression has a physical cause, and once that is conquered, apparently insurmountable psychological problems are much more easily dealt with.

Physical Causes

Energy supply to the brain. The brain needs much more energy than the body and this it gets in the form of ATP. However ATP is not just the energy molecule; it is a neurotransmittor in its own right. To be precise, it is a co-transmittor which means other neurotranmittors like serotonin and acetylcholine will not work unless there is a molecule of ATP with them. Depression is thought to be due to low levels of such neurotransmittors in the brain; so, increasing ATP will make whatever is there function much better! See Brain fog - poor memory, difficulty thinking clearly etc.

Allergy and hypoglycaemia
Food and mood are closely linked. What we eat is so often driven by addiction, complicated by the fact that one gets allergic to one's addiction, and addicted to one's allergens. Blood-sugar levels have a profound effect on mood. This is because when blood-sugar levels run high, the brain can function efficiently and feels cool, calm and collected. Whilst the brain may like this, it's a metabolic disaster for the body: insulin is released and blood sugar levels come swinging down. The sufferer can relieve these symptoms by eating sugar or carbohydrates again and easily recognises his comfort foods. The long-term symptom of this is high insulin levels, weight gain, diabetes, heart disease and so on. Middle-age spread, therefore, is symptomatic of chronic stress driving carbohydrate addiction. Other addictive substances include caffeine, chocolate, nicotine, and alcohol, many of which are addictive because of their effects on blood-sugar levels. Most psychiatric in-patients are obvious addicts. It always amazes me that there is no control in such patient-units over carbohydrate intake (sugar and biscuits), caffeine and - often - cigarette smoking. Indeed, most psychotropic drugs have their action because they increase the blood-sugar levels, whilst also, unfortunately, increasing weight and accelerating the aging process. For many people just doing the Ketogenic diet - the practical details makes the world of difference. Please also see My book The PK Cookbook - Go Paleo-ketogenic and get the best of both worlds.
If one sees more than minimal consumption of sugar and refined carbohydrates as an addiction, then one can start to understand why they have such profound effects on mood. As with any other addiction, expect short-term withdrawal-symptoms on cutting down. See Hypoglycaemia - the full story

Allergies to foods can also manifest with depression and a good clue is excessive eating of that particular food. For many people just doing the Ketogenic diet - the practical details makes the world of difference. Please see also My book The PK Cookbook - Go Paleo-ketogenic and get the best of both worlds.
Micronutrient deficiency
The brain is the most biochemically complicated and metabolically active organ of the body; so almost any deficiency of almost any micronutrient could have effects on the brain. That is why I like everybody to take Nutritional Supplements. Alcohol, for example, will deplete B vitamins which are essential for maintaining blood-sugar levels and for normal brain biochemistry. High-dose B12 given by injection can be extremely useful for improving mood. Indeed, one has to be careful in a patient prone to mania because high-dose B12 by injection can provoke an attack. Vitamin B3 (niacinamide) is excellent at stabilising blood-sugar levels when used in doses of 500mgs three times a day or more. Just be mindful that it can - rarely - upset the liver, and this is usually accompanied by feeling slightly nauseated. Indeed, in clinical trials B3 given in these doses has been shown to be more effective than diazepam (Valium) at stabilising mood. Magnesium is also described as nature's tranquiliser; it has a generally calming effect. Its use in excitable horses has been described as magical!

Sleep - poor quality sleep will result in depression. See Sleep is vital for good health.

Light - Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) is a common cause of depression. It is probably a universal natural reaction to winter. To survive the winter, the body needs to slow down in order to conserve energy; so, we go into a sort of hibernation. Depression is a part of this. Full-spectrum light can be very helpful for some people. See HEALTHY HOUSE 0845 450 5950 or HEALTHY HOUSE

Lack of Exercise - Exercise is very good at decreasing depression. Exercise could be physical or mental - and preferably both. In fact, some people become hooked on exercise and look forward to their daily buzz to stay healthy. I know I do! The problem is getting started. You actually need someone to drag you out for a walk initially or take you swimming or whatever. Try to find an exercise that you actually enjoy, so that it becomes a pleasure instead of a grind.

Hormonal problems - especially hypothyroidism - can present with depression - see Hypothyroidism - diagnosis of and Hypothyroidism.

Hyperventilation can cause depression, but this is mainly a problem with chronic anxiety. See Hyperventilation.

Prescription medication, addictions and toxic chemicals
Drugs and chemicals acting as allergens and/or toxins can certainly cause depression. Organophosphate pesticides, for example, can induce an acute psychotic disorder; in lesser doses they certainly cause depression."

Ps. I'm not telling u to quit ur meds. That could be dangerous

Thank u soco

I'm telling the truth. I really really struggle 😭😭😭

My brain doesn't work properly and I told people at beginning of post. Why r people not listening to me😭😭😭 people don't listen.

Why r people confusing me 😭😭 it's not funny and it makes my life harder.

Eee god I'm gonna crack up shortly 😢

She is such a brave inspiring caring person with such such a beautiful heart.

This could kill her. She needs care to keep her alive.
I've seen how poorly she can get. She's only recently started to regain something that resembles a quality of life and now this is going to take that away again.

And she's gonna end up fighting for her life again. She used to get seizures and risk or stopping breathing. How is she gonna stay away live if that happens again and no one is there?

And her parents are very old and frail who she lives with. I think they both have dementia. I don't think they can take care of themselves let alone her.

Her mam used to but it became too much and now her mam forgets how to cook too.

I think he would get people mixed up.

Eg. My dad when he shouts EAT!
A long time ago I might have were being nasty. But now I know it's cos he worries about me.

I'm a really sensitive person and not everyone are, and sometimes can misunderstand people thinking they're being mean when they don't mean it.

But because they aren't as sensitive sometimes it's hard for them to understand why something would upset another when it would never upset them.

Maybe he were kinda like that...

I think he were scared of getting hurt sometimes.. I don't really remember everything very good.

He seemed to think I betrayed his trust when I emailed u. Even though it wasn't about him. Jealousy maybe. But I guess jealousy is hurt coming out from low self esteem

OK I'm rambling.