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Nobody else is going to start a post, looks like I'll have to talk to myself.

You're right, I'm too old for the lifestyle I've become accustomed to. That's a lot of it and I know I need to slow down. And I was never really into opioids before but the older and more in pain my body gets the more I like them. Plus there's a bigger supply of them and they are more powerful than they ever were before...

As far as the wife and kids they aren't stupid. They know me better than I know myself. It's just that I have been doing insane things forever and they just expect me to keep being myself. I'm a good provider. Compared to 20 years ago I am relatively straight though, so they were really surprised when I finally tripped up and got caught. And yeah I am feeling the tough love as we speak. I don't know where my car keys are and apparently it's going to stay like that until I am legal. And the wife said something about how we could have gone to the Bahamas for what I spent on lawyers this month. Another day in paradise.

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NFL Superbowl Poll II

That's what I think. All they have to do is take one illegal hit on Brady and put him out of the game and it's over. I don't understand why this didn't happen 10 years ago.

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Nobody else is going to start a post, looks like I'll have to talk to myself.

And yeah TheClue didn't you just post a picture of about 100 gallons of wine you're making? That's kind of tempting for someone who's had trouble with alcohol in the past. I guess you've figured out a way to exert the proper amount of self control.

See that's what I don't like about NA and why I made this post. They don't want me to drink a beer while watching the Superbowl because they think if I dip my toe in the water I'll suddenly jump in over my head. I've been dipping that toe in the water my whole life without drowning. But yeah I went a little too far outside the lines or I wouldn't be in the position I'm in.

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Nobody else is going to start a post, looks like I'll have to talk to myself.

I don't think I've been completely straight for a week since I was 12 years old honestly. And yet I'll be 60 in a little over a year and this is the first time it has ever caused me any trouble...

Heck I went to see a probation officer yesterday and all he wanted was money and for me to sign up for some classes that they give, that also cost a lot of money. I figured he was going to take a urine sample and see what the hell was going on in my life. I mean he's looking at a police report that says I was driving around with enough fentanyl in my system to kill a lot of people and he just wants cash. I guess that's what it's all about.

Oh and I went to an NA meeting and the door was locked. It's in this cabin beside a church and there was already a young girl waiting there so we talked for a while. She looked kind of scared. She had blue black hair with a big blonde streak and a pierced nose and eyebrows and here I am an old man with gray hair. I think she thought I was a pastor or something. Finally she asked me if I knew anything about a meeting in the cabin and I said yeah they are supposed to have a Narcotics Anonymous meeting, that's why I'm here. She looked surprised and said really? Yup...

So she said she had never been to one and kind of laughed again, I could tell she was out there. Actually these meetings seem like a great place to meet new contacts, pfffft. Yeah finally it was like almost 10 minutes late and another person came up and tried the door and we all looked at each other and left. So much for HELP from anyone that is supposed to give it.

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After nearly 20 years, 4 kids, and TONS of frustration on my part, my husband has said that we should divorce.

Was he just having a bad day or did something really big happen? I mean after 20 years you wouldn't think someone would walk away unless they caught you in bed with someone else. Do you have a half dozen credit cards maxed out at $10,000 apiece that he just found out about or at least something like that? Gotta be more to the story than this... hell and I thought I was having a bad week. NA meetings are actually kind of fun, a lot better than a divorce anyway.

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so ..

Man is dog's best friend, or something like that. I grew up with a dog in the house, and as soon as I was settled in I started having dogs myself. I have two of them now, they really know how to make you feel loved.

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NFL Superbowl Poll II

Rams and Patriots people! All together now, GO RAMS! Eat $#!+ and die Brady...

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Sometimes keeping control is hard.

I think that's everyone. Anything worth having is usually a lot of work to get. Heck even just making it to the end of the day on a crappy job takes a lot of resolve.

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Nobody else is going to start a post, looks like I'll have to talk to myself.

Thanks Sherlock, I'm doing fine. I just like to color outside the lines a little too much.

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Nobody else is going to start a post, looks like I'll have to talk to myself.

I'm not going through withdrawal or anything like that, I've been clean for six months and really don't miss it much. I went to meetings for a month and decided it wasn't really helping me, if anything it made me think about dope more.

What really got me was this guy who came in straight from a rehab facility that he had been kicked out of... he was late to the meeting, he was still high AF, and I was sitting there thinking he should be sharing or something. I know everyone else knew he was messed up. He couldn't hold his eyes open and his nose was running the whole nine yards. That's the last time I went.

And really the first meeting I went to I probably looked a lot like him, in fact I know I did because two people came up to me after the meeting and said "you're still using, aren't you"? I guess that's what the place is for, moral support. It's not really their way or the highway, it's pretty much come on in and hang out and listen to people feel sorry for themselves. I'm not really good at that, but I guess that's what I'm doing here... maybe it will be different now that I have to go.

Oh I'll be excellent, it's not that big of a deal I just felt like ranting. I just think the place could improve, I felt like I was at a Baptist church not among friends with similar problems. Maybe I should start my own.

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