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The Swansong.

soco wrote:
Girls are strange Legion. I should know.

Ironically perhaps I may have saved her life following that. "She cut her leg deeply, I kept pressure on the wound while her dad rushed us to the hospital" she's still angry at me for that.

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soco wrote:
Did this happen today or awhile ago?

This has been going on for a few weeks. Today I decided it was time to "pull the plug" because of it.

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The Swansong.

soco wrote:
May I ask what happened today that brought us all here? Maybe at work...?

Many things. Me not recognizing my own eyes anymore in the mirror, the entire family of my ex blaming me for her attempted suicides following the breakup (will elaborate later). Finding myself less than human over things I actually have no control over. Drugs not working. Therapy not working.

The primary reason I broke up. When I was younger (early 20s) I stabbed another man with broken glass with the intent to kill. (He had previously assaulted me severely (bruised ribs, several bruises along the spine etc.) I was cleared from criminal charges due to it being seen as primarily self defence. (He survived without permanent injuries) I was forced to undergo therapy. I did, the first suicide attempt was in that clinic.

My now ex girlfriend. Asked me straight up to kill her. "Because I had been capable in doing so before right?"

This felt like such a metaphorical knife to the back I had to leave that relationship.

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The Swansong.

soco wrote:
So what are you having to drink?

Tonic, as in gin tonic but without the gin.

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The Swansong.

Jetmoo wrote:

Legion wrote:

danihatesyou wrote:
https://web.archive.org/web/20100722012821/http...

Still the same guy, though the eye has taken some hits since.

Oh dear I only just understood this. I'm sorry

It still works no worries (well with glasses anyway) just have a bit of scarring in the iris and it's damn near permanently bloodshot. "Catching sidewalk in the eyesocket will do that"

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The Swansong.

Burned everything I wrote recently. Including the USB drives I had the things on digitally. Not the most nature friendly thing but it had to be done.

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The Swansong.

danihatesyou wrote:
https://web.archive.org/web/20100722012821/http...

Still the same guy, though the eye has taken some hits since.

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The Swansong.

soco wrote:
But since you're home, you need to serve the drinks. Got any iced tea?

Only the regular, boil some water English blend kind I'm afraid.

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The Swansong.

soco wrote:
Are you alone?

I'm almost always alone here.
Apologies to people if I miss a reply.

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Anonymous wrote:
What time is it there?

00:50 (am)

Anonymous wrote:
Sorry to be keeping you up!

I only sleep when I take a pill to do so. Or alcohol, so no worries in that regard.

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