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Just a rather dark rant.

All I can really say is that you're not alone in this. Everything I touch seems to fall apart regardless of my intentions.

I hope you find peace somehow.

-Legion.

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Time is not a clock but a Clock was invented to MEASURE Time.

NaCtHoMaN wrote:
obsession with the measure killed the soul

Obsession with the measure also prevents you from working half the time as overtime.

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it's nice here

Honestly, I hate to be the negative one but. It seems pretty stagnant the past time.

I'm debating removing my account at this time.

-Legion.

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Self-grieving and poisoning thoughts.

Truth be told, for the first 26 years of my life I felt obsolete. Attempted suicide twice with varying results (chronic pain primarily) for a long time I've only had one good friend and that contact is slowly waning (Given he has a family now).

I'm not going to go into detail but life has been challenging, love even more so given I suffer from severe trust issues stemming from past events. Therapy lasting 3 years did nothing to change this.

At this time my mother is in the hospital fighting for her life after multiple strokes in the left brain half. And the person she appears to trust the most still (after my father) is me. It feels like my purpose in life at this point is to extend hers or make the end as comfy as possible (this thought breaks me).

Following this period however I don't know where I'll be. Or if I'll be at all. It seems even after 31 years, life isn't really going anywhere. So ever more often I wonder if it makes sense to continue.

Sorry for the most honest reply I'll ever post.

-Legion.

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This gender neutral initiative is confusing.

I'm willing to go to the point of calling a transgender male to "female" her and she (and vise versa). But that is where I draw the line. I refuse to use or accept the whole million different genders and pronouns movement.

If someone feels offended and attacked by me referring to them as he or she then those people are at least in the social and logical sense so far below what I care about that I'm not even going to bother discussing the matter. Those people can just get/stay out of my life.

And I have lost people over this. Social justice is a sect.

-Legion.

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What's your new years resolution and will you really keep it?

Already failed.

Was intending on drinking less, but given Scotch is a great stress reliever I think I've consumed more of it this past week than in the 3 months before.

New years resolutions are rubbish to begin with however.

-Legion.

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Given I'm not celebrating Christmas this year.

Sherlock wrote:
Make sure she takes them. Older people are absolutely notorious for failing to take their meds!

I have a medicine box (5 slots, 7 days) I check this every night.

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Given I'm not celebrating Christmas this year.

Sherlock wrote:
If a person has high blood pressure, and does not take the meds, he/she will eventually have a debilitating stroke.

Hope your mom recovers--and hope you get some useful information from the hospital.

She's on 3 if I'm correct (Valsartan, Bisoprolol and Asenocumerol) pardon misspellings).

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Given I'm not celebrating Christmas this year.

Sherlock wrote:
My advice: be good to yourself. Get yourself something you like. See a good movie--even if it's at home on television or a DVD.

What are your mom's prospects for recovery? Was she taking her blood pressure meds before?

She's been in heart medication for about 5 years now. She was recovering but it degrades back in waves. Going to contact the hospital again tomorrow to see what can be done.

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How close do you relate to your ethenicity?

I am of quite a mixed heritage. Being descendant from (and bear with me)

Indonesian-Java / Germanic descend. And from French nobility (fled from the guillotine) / Norse Germanic descend.

So deciding which heritage is a tricky one. As for ethnicity, I was born and currently still live in the Netherlands. Which culturally has had some pretty dark pages.

Also in the current social climate saying you're from Norse descend is enough to label you a Nazi. I suppose I just try to live an honourable life wherever possible...

-Legion.

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