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The Swansong.

Anonymous wrote:
Just a yes or no....

I am home.

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littlenick wrote:
What part of the country are you in?

Across the globe, northern part of the Netherlands.

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soco wrote:
Legion. Where are you?

In which context?

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Hard to reply to all. Took several anti-psychotics. Mind running slower be patient please.

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Am here.

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Jetmoo wrote:
Have u ever posted asking for support on the mental health groups?
Or only ever helped others?

Asked for help in many places. It's still frowned upon for a man to ask for help, even in said groups.

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Jetmoo wrote:

Legion wrote:

Jetmoo wrote:
Have u tried joining mental health support groups?

There is a fb closed group I am in for mental health. It might be helpful to you as there are people around all the time

Been part of so many "support" groups i've honestly lost count. I spent as much as i can helping them yet again feeling like a burden when i need help myself.

There is nothing wrong with seeking help. This post is your way of seeking help and I think u are sooo brave for doing it.

It takes real courage to do that especially with how you feel in order to do it.

U overcome a big obstacle when u ask for help. U could give yourself more credit and a pat on the back

Actually it was something i was going to keep open on my screen. I have a bottle of pills to my side i still fully intend on taking them before the day comes to an end. It's the only way i can stop this.

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Jetmoo wrote:
Have u tried joining mental health support groups?

There is a fb closed group I am in for mental health. It might be helpful to you as there are people around all the time

Been part of so many "support" groups i've honestly lost count. I spent as much as i can helping them yet again feeling like a burden when i need help myself.

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Jetmoo wrote:
Sometimes these things happen but they don't make us bad people. We are just trying to survive in a difficult world.

There is nothing rewarding to this difficult world. I'm 32, i should've had a wife and kids by now. I long for that harder than i'd ever admit "read: showing weakness" alas, I'm clearly not a Man enough.

I've been getting worse since a severe concussion following a traffic accident (hence the should have died there 4 years ago) making me even more useless as a human being.

We're all responsible for our own actions.
I likely deserve everything that has happened to me. I just wish people would be more thorough and follow through.

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Jetmoo wrote:

It matters what your heart is inside.
It matters more what to do with your life. Not how u look in life.

Sadly this isn't true. In a nation where the average length is 6'1/6'2 being anything under 6 is just setting things up to fail regardless.

As for my heart. If it wasn't for the heart failure i doubt i'd even have one. I broke up with my last relationship while she was in the hospital following an attempted suicide. Which she blamed me for (Borderline is one hell of a thing). I still feel guilty for that, but if i reconnect i know i'll only be taken advantage of.

Jetmoo wrote:
But why would we want to be like those hurtful people? We don't go round hurting people.

Life is so much easier if you're the one causing the pain. It's funny how when i'm in a psychotic (psychosis) episode. Going around heartless taking advantage of others. Being relentless. People do respect me.

The moment you show compassion, you show weakness. And it seems as a man that's just unacceptable or at least not a risk worth taking.

Lately my own father just turns his head when i tell him I'm not doing too well. I suppose he's tired of my ****shit as well for which i don't blame him.

In short, i just can't do this anymore. The past days I've been praying to not wake up every night i go to sleep. The moment a pain in my chest jolts up i begin to smile. I'm ready for this. As a matter i feel i should've died at least 4 years ago.

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