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Music post, we used to have one.

https://youtu.be/8p0qo30LUfo O;)

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Soo I don't know why I was given an inhaler?

Any way of asking them?

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Domestic violence and abuse..

Sherlock, thank you. As i suffer with cptsd i know a bit about damage in people. However, i'd argue that i am damaged a little bit more than most, as so far i have been bullied out from every single place where i have been (apart of one job where i was the only woman among 5 men, and wore high heals and short skirts). On bad days i can't even go to a shop without someone attacking me in some way. And last year i began getting attacked by animals, too!

And talking to a minister? Ha, if only i could say..! :(

People in my last church did try to be nice. But it was a lot of efford for them and i didnot want to be a burden..

I have quite a few friends, but none understand me..

My goal of fostering has just been crushed! :,(

My five year battle for a certain cause seems to be just lost now as i can no longer concentrate on it because of the guy.

And sadly, for my age, i look too good :( people guess at least ten years less, but it is all due to my immaturity..and it still gets me in lots of trouble with men; although i try to dress as dull as i can and am overweight now.

I can (now) forgive myself. However, what keeps me trapped in the past is my inability to forgive other people who hurt me.. No matter how much i want it, and try, and pray for the grace to do it; my heart is rock solid with unforgiveness..

One 'good' thing about this guy was that he was more unforgiving than i am, and the first guy ever who had an ego bigger than me! It, interestingly, helped me.. ;D

I need to somehow survive this weekend without contacting him :( Hope you will have an excellent weekend time!

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Domestic violence and abuse..

Anonymous wrote:
these are very bad times in general but for what its worth sorry
as for me i've never even been allowed to be in a relationship thats a non marriage relationship

:(((( how come?

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Anonymous wrote:

well my health is in the pits too and i want to leave this city i am in but i can get a job in another bad city which is slightly better than here but really you know they prefer grads and post grads in jobs

I worked for years as a domestic cleaner just because i had mental health issues and nobody would hire me. And i cycled to work, too.

My brother works as a gardener and gets paid twice as much as people with a degree doing an avearage office job..

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Domestic violence and abuse..

smiley wrote:
Everybody, no matter how damaged, deserves a decent person or no romantic partner at all. Nobody, not one person on Earth, deserves a partner who hurts them on purpose.

No romantic partner for me then.. :โ€ข]

smiley wrote:

You've apologized to the man for hitting him. Let him go now. The thing that caused you to lose your temper will happen again. You should work on loving and accepting yourself before you will be able to recognize it in someone else.

I agree, but would you mind restraining me until Tuesday, please? 0:)

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Anonymous wrote:
Well sorry to hijack the OP's post but yeah I'd like to finish a degree in a different field than the one i dropped out of but i've got no funding and it takes money to solve problems so i cant do much as ive got no money

You can't do any job at all until you save up for your degree? :(

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:( your situation is not easy and you will need lots of motivation to tackle it.

I dont have a degree either. There are well paid jobs without a degree. Or maybe you could get a degree..?

What would you like to do? What would you like your life to be like? Isn't there even one thing you could do?

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Mya wrote:
:( sorry you are feeling like it.

Have you got some health issues? Money issues? Toxic parents? Abusive partner? A bully boss? Are you homeless..?

i have all those issues plus toxic pressident

Oh, i am so sorry :( i don't think i'd be able to do anything about the president other than pray.. but do you think you could start doing something about the other issues? One thing at a time? To find help and support as they are all quite big ones to solve on one's own?

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Domestic violence and abuse..

Dear Sherlock, thank you so much for your post - I totally agree with you on almost everything!

I don't know if I deserve a decent guy though, and certainly if they are any around me; they make sure they stay well away as i am so damaged. Anyway, I wouldnt be looking for one now..

I will need to move in September 5hrs from here, and i am dreading the change from practical reasons.

I dont have a church :( i had to give up on going as people found it hard and unpleasant to be around me. I am too damaged.. So, can't talk to a minister, or get more active in church.

I am angry with myself for falling for Satan's lies and deceipt again; and why Papa up there let's me fall on my face all the time! Im over 40 now! :( But i have asked Him for forgiveness and i know i have to forgive myself now.

I struggle to figure out if i need to apologise to the guy, which i had already done by texts as i wanted us to figure things out and to try again. But he just yelled that he was scared of me and he wouldnt let me hit him again..

I think it is his birthday on Monday so i will struggle until then not to contact him to apologise as yes, i am so sorry for hiting him. :( i still love him and miss him so much; we could have maybe figure things out if i had not done it..

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