last time Dorian needed a pill i let the vet have a go and even they ended up bleeding xD all in all i avoid the situation where possible!

if your therapy and therapist isnt working for you request that it is changed.
if your meds arent working for you, tell someone. if they are and you dont want to change them, tell someone.

therapy is designed to be collaborative between the patient and the therapist. you chooe your goals, plan how you might get there and then work towards it together. trust needs to be built and a mutual understanding and respect.

as for the multiple diagnoses there are strong comorbidities between various mental health disorders which isnt always helpful. and can lead to a big medley of medication which i personally dont always think is a good thing though it depends on the person.

i dont know how old you are or what youve been through but things can get better. BUT, they wont if you dont try and make them better. it really is that simple. whether its cutting off people and parts of your life that cause the negativity. working with your therapist and being proactive in your treatment. or changing up your lifestyle and exapnding your horizons and interests. not working with them, not taking your meds, not trying to engage in therapy, not voicing your concerns about it and keeping the one track mind of 'this is my life and im stuck with it' will make sure that no, it wont get better and it wont change.

its one of the hardest things to do. i have seen people choose both paths. the ones who chose to make the effort got their way out of the hole and moved forward and while they still have some demons in their closets theyre doing good. the ones who didnt are still dealing with the same crap, still not happy and getting ever deeper in the hole of their dispair.

Its your choice, but i hope you make the one which will help you the most.

First of all with the creme try stirring constantly with a whisk, and using a lower heat while everythings combineing. it takes longer but should make it smoother.

Clearly there are some faulty cognitions going round in your mind. i have questioned before whether my assumption of being ditched as a friend has infact been the reason that i have ended up being ditched. the subconscious part of the mind working against what you think youre trying to get towards and making some known realised mistake keep reoccuring.

My most recent abandonment of friends comes from a lifestyle choice change i had to make to be able to get a job when i finish uni. all of the friends that i had who also endulge in that lifestyle have since not messaged me, come over or anything. i thought for many of them after so many years our friendships would go deeper than that but apparently i was wrong. in the past its felt as though i had specific uses for people - im a pleaser and want to make people happy and help. suddenly they dont need it anymore and bye bye.

the older ive got (im an old uni student) the pickier ive become with potential friends and as such they seem to stick better though its definitely not fool proof. i have found that while i now have more stable friendships they will ebb ad flow in the closeness we keep. a couple live in london but come home for a month at a time and when theyre home we're really close but when they go we dont keep in contact so much. almost makes the time when they're home more special as we have lots of catching up to do. though it does mean when they go back to london i am mostly on my own apart from that one friend at uni.

i understand the 'is it the hobby or the friends i want' mentality. simple truth is you dont know til you try. an if you really do enjoy the hobby chances are youre more likely to get on with the people there i suppose as itll be a mutual interest and arguably certain people enjoy certain things.

i would say though, to get some pazzazz back in your personal life you need to feel some form of accomplishment in it. i assume you do well at your work, just as i do and same with uni. it gives me the motivation to go for it and the confidence to let that side of me out. comparitively when lifes beating you down, and god its a baseball bat with nails sticking out of it sometimes, that also gets beaten away. the sence of importance and confidence is deminished and as such the vitality that would come along with it. its caused me to seek therapy on more than one occasion which has helped with fault through processes and self worth issues but ultimately life does end up putting me back in my place. though i am getting much better at managing its effects and dealing with it. having a place like this to vent about everything is very helpful!

as for evidence, chances are youre minimising the positive bits and exaggerating the bad bits. you might not think you are or even notice youre doing it but its usually the case. my drunk self is often one to point this out as she is such a happy person and tells myself how it is. drunk me is very inspirational. and its never too late to change a mindset, maybe a therapist would do you good. might even help you figure out patterns youve yet to notice yourself as to why you go round in circles. as im in training to be one im starting to learn the sneaky techniques they use to do this!

have you asked your brother? would be a good place to start. and possibly talking to your dad about it. but also if she is stressed and she's feeling negative vibes from you that might be making it harder for her to talk to you. if it really is something bad she might be trying to protect you hence only talking to your dad. afterall i assume that is her partner and as such they will have a different relationship to you and her.

my parents are great at not telling me anything until after the fact. not out of malice or not wanting me involved but they dont want me to worry and theyre just trying to well...be parents and protect me. i usually get mad at them for it, especially now im older and feel like i have a bit more right to be in the loop than when i was a kid. but on the flip side i definitely dont tell them everything thats going on in my life, good or bad or some stuff they just dont need to know!

every parents-child relationship is different. if it bothers you that much talk to them about it, even if its just your dad for now as he might be able to better communicate it to your mum.

I completely understand where you are coming from. at uni and work i largely excel and i am the bubbliest, most out going person. also true when i actually do go out and socialise (this usually involved going drinking with people). but at home i feel the opposite and its very frustrating.

Learing to feel comfortable and worthy in your own company is diffucult and something i am still learning to do. i have a very small social circle of people who i will 'hang out' with. lately its litterally consisted of one person (tonight we built a pillow fort and watched movies because the snows so bad).

as others have suggested trying to meet like minded people can help - im part of a society at uni. however it wast as sucessful as i hoped but the couple of people i do get on with are great.

there is nothing wrong with having a small circle, you might find some of your colleagues want to be friends outside of work too. you miht find that you get pleasure from online friendships through gaming for example.

if you have a hobby you want to try or something that makes you curious. even a cooking class! you never know who you'll meet. dont reject friendships before you give them a chance...something i am guilty of doing myself but again something i am also working on changing. some people will dissappoint you, not be long term, or it jsut wont work. but how will you knwo unless you try?

burnt - likely heats too high so round the edge is burnt and the middles not quite done.
too liquid - probably not enough flour/sugar

also try changing up the type of sugar you use as they produce different results.

i feel the pain with Tamiflu, when swine flu was a thing they gave it to us at school and i had an allergic reaction which manifested basically in a chest infection which lasted about 6months...straight through exam season, summer and headed towards christmas with uncontrollable coughing fits all the time. i am now a master at suppressing coughing at inconvenient times though so i got something out of it....

hope youre on the mend now though!

parents ca be a pain, theyre there to worry about you, question thing and i havent met any that arent atleast a little bit over bearing. do your best to work towards moving out i you can! but i agree with Soco! You life to live, they brought you up so ave no one to blame but themselves if they dont like what you do!

Live life, be happy.

yehh most weeks we atleast hit the first one and at the weekeneds we can hit 2/3 depending how busy town is :)

hah yes we definitely do from all the experiences my friend and i have had! one did a semester over in minnesota and he would drink them under the table having a civilised tipple with a meal. we drink to drink in the UK, notdrink to playbeer pong.