262 replies, Replies 71 to 80

The wave might be passing...

thanks soco :) 23 is a dull age...dont think its a mile stone for anything xD just a year further into adulting :/

- written
What's your new years resolution and will you really keep it?

soco wrote:

ProffVampy wrote:
Mines giving up something i love doing...but i have to for the job i want so i will...but i have till summer so its ok for now!

Are you referring to my reply on your other post?

possibly :P

- written
The wave might be passing...

Mines on Boxing day, 26th dec. So litterally nothings open apart from for shopping but fighting through crowds in town isnt my idea of a fun birthday xD i ended up going to the cinema with one friend and a different one came over in the evening for some drinks. but i was full with a cold this year and my face hurt from swollen sinuses which was just lovely :/ I usually just blank most of the holiday season til New Years, my family is never about and its always dissappointing. I cant wait for the day that im incharge of christmas and i cook everyone dinner and host it :')

- written
I guess im on the night shift now...

i am very much a night owl but the real world doesnt work at those hours which frustrating. i currently sway somewhere in the middle as a student. But i do find if i need to knock my sleeping pattern either way, whether for work or say travelling and dealing with jet lag, that forcing myself to stay awake til the following evening.
For example when i go to singapore i will be awake all day, get the 10pm flight from the uk, stay up for the 13hour flight and get there about 4pm, and stay up til about 8/9oclock. by then my bodys so tired it just resets and it makes it much easier to deal with the jet lag. Its a looooong day though...

- written
What's your new years resolution and will you really keep it?

Mines giving up something i love doing...but i have to for the job i want so i will...but i have till summer so its ok for now!

- written
Why are my chocolate chip cookies cakey and not dense and chewey?

huzzah! as we helped do we get to sample some? :)

- written
The wave might be passing...

I know i am awful for over thinking things. especially when i am on my own. Its something i am having to get better at not doing now i live on my own!

And i would never stop doing something i wanted to do for a guy. Was one of the issues with my last long term issue. We wanted very different things and of course there is compromise but when just one side is making effort, changing, not doing what they want then yes its dangerous. i'm far too strong minded for things like that! Though, i do wonder whether if i get married and then got my doctorate how they would feel about that if they didnt have one...i'll cross that bridge when i get there!

- written
The wave might be passing...

soco wrote:
How about trying a blunt? Just to take a little of the edge off the anxiety without fear of addiction

hahaha my lovely you have no idea xD I don't tell you guys all my secrets ;)

- written
The wave might be passing...

Im getting more used to being on my own and enjoying my own company. its weird though as ive never done it before and never lived alone before. Even now i have the cat with me but hes not very often good company!

I never found that my previous relationship (the long term one not the awful recent one) did take presidence over my academic work but maybe that was a bad thing? who knows.

I think i just feel a bit lost, as sherlock said im still finding my place in ths cosmos. I used to be so sure of it when everything was going smoothly for 4 years but 2017 has shaken that up and left me to find the pieces. but then i have discovered new parts of my personality, some good some bad. and had some old parts resurface too....those bits were largely. I have a both wonderful and horrible ability to suppress feelings of guilt that i should have for something i have done wrong, especially when im angry which i have been alot recently and it causes me to do and say some awful things to the people who annoy me.

I also find, studying clinical psychology, that i over analyse myself, and then try and ignore it because i know im being too harsh with it but i also know i should listen more because theres a reason im doing it and part of my reason is right. I knew i shoulnt have rebounded to my last relationship because i was only attracted to him because he was the opposite of my long term ex. Didnt mean he was good for me, didnt mean it would be better and i knew that but i chose to ignore it... suppose it was a learning experience but i couldve done without the stress

- written
Why are my chocolate chip cookies cakey and not dense and chewey?

might well be the type of sugar youre using. i find brown sugar works better for cookies. the picutre below kinda explains the difference sugars make to them.

[https://i.pinimg.com/736x/de/da/d5/dedad5404ba7...]

- written