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Close please.

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No need to apologize. Glad youโ€™re doing okay.

Best of luck going forward and I hope things start to turn up for the better for you. ๐Ÿ˜Š You never know whatโ€™s around the next corner.

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Idk about anyone else but I think reporting, Nevermind like this was a bad idea.
Surely there had to be another way to help her without involving this "help site"
I'm glad that she has got the help which is so desperately needed, however I also think "new comers" will have second thoughts about airing there problems/issues now.

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Hi Kyofu. (Love that username btw)
Rockster is right; no need to apologize to us. We still care about you and your relationships with family. Hiding your true self by lying to anyone is not good. Everyone that is involved in this, not just here on Help-qa, are sincerely trying to help you. From your mother to your sister to the doctors and judges. If you still have a strong desire to end your life than none of this matters to you. Lying to try hide from those sincerely trying to help you get better is not the answer. Suicide is never ever the best answer. It is a cop out. The pain you feel is not self inflicted. It is because of the actions of others around you. THEY decided to use you. You had no way to resist. The damage they did can never be taken away. But you can move past all this and live a very happy life, liking and loving others.
And deep deep down in your soul I really believe you want that too. Whether you believe in a God or not He is and will continue to protect you. He loves you regardless of if you love Him or not. His love is not conditional.
I believe there are several of us here that genuinely care about you with that same unconditional value. We sincerely care and WILL help you. All we ask is for you to be honest with us and take our advice to heart. We however will never ever suggest suicide as the best answer. It never was and never will be.

Now go and hug your kittens and tell them how much you love them.

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What's the issue with the cats?

Did people report you on here?

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J.N-Bucking wrote:
What's the issue with the cats?

Did people report you on here?

Can't speak for the cats but yes somebody here jumped to a false conclusion and notified the international police (Interpol). They still remain anonymous.

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The cats. My mom just tells me I can't have them if im gonna be like this.

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They all are currently healthy though, correct?

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Yes

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I sure wish I could talk directly with your mother. She is severely lacking in the "I give a damn" department.

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In general its hard to "give a damn" when I keep trying to die which makes people tired and angry.

But she just doesn't get it.
I'd rather her know nothing because she uses it against me like a weapon.
It just makes me want to die more.
Ultimately I'm going to die probably at my own hands regardless of any thing done so I'm pretty much a waste of resources.

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Nevermind wrote:
The cats. My mom just tells me I can't have them if im gonna be like this.

Cats are very good companions for people with mental health and emotional issues.

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Nevermind wrote:
In general its hard to "give a damn" when I keep trying to die which makes people tired and angry.

But she just doesn't get it.
I'd rather her know nothing because she uses it against me like a weapon.
It just makes me want to die more.
Ultimately I'm going to die probably at my own hands regardless of any thing done so I'm pretty much a waste of resources.

She's stressed and ill as well. Some think that "using like a weapon" will force you better. Of course this is wrong, but she's ill, but loves you.

I have a friend who drinks a lot and drives. He's wrecked and damaged count stuff. Only a matter of time before he kills someone. He's been in jail several times and drives with no license. His sister called the police and he was arrested the recently. He's mad at her and blames her for jail time. Wrong, yes. Ill, yes. What to do? No answer. Tried everything and he's even been employed by the police in an effort to make him feel better and NOT drink. Current status is that his sister is damaged now and the thought of his name sends her to the hospital. Mental health and suicide effects well beyond the patient.

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JustClose wanted to apologize.ยฌ ยฌ I am sorry for being upset about the reporting.ยฌ It was a negative experience for me because I keep all those thoughts away from people in my household for a number of reasons I wont bother to bore you with.ยฌ ยฌ They are aware of what is wrong with me but they think its a jokeplease. So when they find out I have to laugh it off.ยฌ I was forced to lie about my feelings because of the situation I found myself in. I can't handle the way those people respond to me. I can't handle the questions ยฌ "When is enough, enough? When are you going to stop this? Why do you keep doing this? If your gonna do this bullsh*t you can't have your cats. When are you gonna end this game?"ยฌ Then comes the accusations. Mom says I have very little empathy, that my medications are just water pills and they only work because you believe. And her saying im doing this because of my dad which is not true. ยฌ I can't handle it. ยฌ When they joke about me being mentally ill or suicidal it makes me think they don't believe or take it seriously. ยฌ ยฌ I keep everything a secret because I want to kill myself when people don't suspect. Which is what I've always done.ยฌ ยฌ I understand now that this site is for people who want to be reported. I will be more private with my sensitive information.ยฌ ยฌ There is good news though regarding my mental health.ยฌ Next week, March 13th. My contract is up. The contract with the judge who is making me follow a set of rules for 90 days. ยฌ As far as I am aware, the hiccup with the police has not caused my contract to be extended.ยฌ But I guess I won't know for sure till I speak to Will.ยฌ ยฌ Regardless, I'm sorry for everything. ยฌ Just hoping explaining will make people realize I'm not trying to be badGjkifxv

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When you are living at home, it seems like you will ne there forever. You won't be. You do not want to die. Especially, you don't want to become 2/3 brain dead after an unsuccessful suicide attempt. Please think strategically--five to ten years down the road. Visualize yourself in your own happy home. You can transcend the present circumstances. And not only that, someone will want and need YOU in the near futute. Are you willing to be there for that person?

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Don't tell me what I want when you don't know me.

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Nevermind wrote:
Don't tell me what I want when you don't know me.

Know you no..familiar with this behavior....completely yes!
Like a bus headed for a wall or cliff with a driver screaming "I don't care and you all can jump!".

I don't think you have anything to teach Sherlock and I about death.
I'm approaching the 19 th year anniversary of when a letter was left addressed to me upon my best friends death. I'm at number 11 to date (9 of whom are directly related).
What do I know? We can support you only.
We will respect you and ask that you try a little bit if you can:)

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I shared this info and questioned whether I should, so you can have confidence and trust in what Sherlock and I are saying to help you:)

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