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A Nanny From Hell..

music=life wrote:
Lol this guy literally sounds exactly like the guy Iโ€™m talking with ๐Ÿ˜‚. We need to find a better type.

Yes, narcs are all the same.. :/

The tragedy for me is that there is a better type in my life.. He's had feelings for me for well over two years. I just never had the confidence or believe that a guy like him could possibly like someone like me :_(

Of course, I have regrets now :( Ever since I knew I was gonna move, I realised I would miss seeing him around..

But it's all messed up now as i stupidly went out with the messed up guy instead!! And im moving next week 4-5 hr drive from here.. :/ I never learn - did the same thing 20 years ago (and even had a child with the messed up guy..)

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DocteurRalph wrote:
I need to be 40 years younger, can you do that? Yeah it's my high school's 40th anniversary and everyone is fat and old and bald or just plain dead. Kinda sucks, life was a lot more fun even 20 years ago. Man I just wish I could be 40 again, this old age ****shit ain't for sissies.

Really? Two years ago was my 20th high school anniversary.. and I would have been the only fat and crazy person, but luckily i did not get to go.

There's no fun in my life, and hasn't been for over 20 years.. just pain, abuse and problems.. So, i'd say, Doc, be glad you got fun at least at some point in your life! ;) But may the good Lord fulfill your eternal youth desire xx

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh

Nix?! :(((

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music=life wrote:

As for this other guy. Iโ€™d say drop him but I am currently doing the same thing. What I am trying to do is remain myself and continue to be friendly. But I am trying not to have any expectations to avoid getting my hopes up. I know im already failing at this but sometimes you need to stop pushing people away in fear of heartbreak.

As for the other guy.. thank you, music=life! Well, i just need to drop him from my mind and heart.. we don't see each other, although a week ago on Monday after probably like 50 text messages, a few phone calls, and one or two visits to his place, I managed to get him to meet me..

I couldn't sleep and just texted him that Papa (God) told me that I will be happy once I let go off him and forgive him.. I wrote to him after midnight that i forgive him and letting him go.. but i will be dating again as i can't forget..

IMMEDIATELY he replied asking me to call him and apologising for not answering my messages.

We met (like before) in a car park after 1am.. He sat in my car (first time) and we talked for an hour.. yep, didn't argue, didn't want to kill each other, and when he got too *****horny he took a runner (as i had blamed him well enough for just wanting a free s*x).. oh, we even discussed a marriage - but he concluded that something about me is not right (oh, boy, if he only knew! ]:P )

Anyway, the next morning.. 'i think we should stop this' 'thank you for understanding' 'stop sending messages' 'you are moving away' 'no, don't bother to stay' 'you can go on date without any problem'.. and a silent treatment.

But somehow i have peace after that.. :((( But (almost) all women would be so happy if i married another abusive guy - ha, how they would be laughing!

Anyway, dear music=life, i so hope, believe and pray, that you will meet that Mr Perfect who will treat you with respect and love and you will live happily ever after.. <3

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Dear @soco and @music=life, your comments are very kind, but I dread that in my case it is a pure evil..

I have been thinking, and analyzing, and overanalyzing, and praying.. and 'the voice' says that - because when I was trapped in my abusive marriage unable to get out (oh, if only you knew how messed up i was by his abuse!), he also cheated on me.. For years i had to lie to myself that he was not, but then in one quarrel i stupidly confronted him, and he even more stupidly admitted to cheating, and of course blaming me - 'if i can't have it at home..'

And btw, did i mention that EVERY SINGLE GUY i ever been with cheated on me? (well, i didn't catch one and never confronted him, but i think he did also as when we broke up i found lots of p*rn on my computer in his account..)

Anyway, the messed up me now unconsciously does something around men to get their attention to make their wifes suffer like i did.. I am afraid this is indeed the true reason for my sickness :(((

And now, i really want it to stop - but how?! :(((

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Lol, Doc, thank you, so nice to read your response - Mea Culpa, Mea Culpa, Mea Maxima Culpa (yep, I was born a Catholic.. will die as a wh*re)..

I am now certain that it is the way I dress what the problem is (in this case).. A relative arrived to visit the family today, and made a comment about my dress suggesting - what the hell are you wearing in this house?

But I am not lusting.. It's just looking; I wouldn't touch.. Even today he walked there topless.. Would you resist looking at a topless woman, Doc? Btw, I managed to say no to marrying a 'heap of muscles' (but mostly as his brain and heart was messed up)..

But, DocteurRalph, I AM truly sorry about your friendship :(( All my friends kinda let me off the hook, but again, i am that dreaded friend who their husbands lust about..aaaaargh

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Question 5...Wednesday

soco wrote:

DocteurRalph wrote:
How can a car accident be one of your best experiences?

Perhaps the paramedic was hot and she got his number. Strictly for future reference of course.

๐Ÿ˜„ ๐Ÿ˜„ ๐Ÿ˜„ ๐Ÿ˜„ Lol, soco, that would be so me.. Once firefighters had to come to my house.. do i need to write any more?! ;D

(CLUE: yep, bloody hard resisting to set fires to my own place ever since..)

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Yeah, guys @soco & @DocteurRalph - not funny! :( two more days and it is over for me (hopefully!), but she is really unhappy and hurt, and will have to live with this..

I don't want to be a nightmare in their life especially when nothing happened and i am mad about another guy.. :_(

Ps: i went for a walk yesterday and i saw him there; what a coincidence! I chose the place as it was our first date place with the other guy.. I hate these demons messing with me, and I hate the way I am always messing things up and causing pain :(((( it's been like this for the past 22 years and I need it to end.

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How do I convince my friend not to lie in her CV ?

One of my friends completely made up her cv, and they didnt bother to check as she came from a different country.. Got the job and they were happy with her..

Hope your friend will choose to get her job in a moral way though..

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music=life wrote:
WEll thatโ€™s good that you got a good online review.

Yes, just not sure she knew about it until I thanked her for the review thinking it was her who wrote it!! :((

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